Again a random thought while traveling.. How we have grown and every passing year our needs have changed..
A few years back seem pretty much the same.. the hunger to grow, to butter the boss better than anyone else, make the best of life etc etc etc...
These needs where so different and so innocent maybe around 20 years back..
I wanted to win a race with my father while walking on the beach.. I wanted to walk ahead without holding my moms hand while she shopped.. I wanted to show how matured and grown up i am.. To show that i am just like them and understand things as much as they did.. I wanted to hang around with my elders sisters friends only to feel i have such cool and college going friends and feel ahead of times in front of my friends...
I liked so many things only because my sister or her friend or my classmates liked it and i wanted to be a part of the so-called-cool and updated conversation..
Today things have changed.. I still want to win the race but not the jovial, innocent one with my family.. i want to win the corporate race where we all rats race together and nibble the small/big obstructions that come in the way. Today i don't feel like being all matured and grown up all the time.. i want to be just myself, laugh my lungs out when i want to, not caring who is around with whom i am.. I do not want to like what others like and feel horrible only to look cool.. I am just like this, maybe a fool but atleast not falsely cool.. I want some one to hold my hand and walk along with me... whom i do not have to show how much i know n understand.. who can see me thru my bad hair days as well and not mind my tantrums or mood swings on some days..
Looks like i have demanded too much from life.. never ending demands u see ;)
Laterssss...
A few years back seem pretty much the same.. the hunger to grow, to butter the boss better than anyone else, make the best of life etc etc etc...
These needs where so different and so innocent maybe around 20 years back..
I wanted to win a race with my father while walking on the beach.. I wanted to walk ahead without holding my moms hand while she shopped.. I wanted to show how matured and grown up i am.. To show that i am just like them and understand things as much as they did.. I wanted to hang around with my elders sisters friends only to feel i have such cool and college going friends and feel ahead of times in front of my friends...
I liked so many things only because my sister or her friend or my classmates liked it and i wanted to be a part of the so-called-cool and updated conversation..
Today things have changed.. I still want to win the race but not the jovial, innocent one with my family.. i want to win the corporate race where we all rats race together and nibble the small/big obstructions that come in the way. Today i don't feel like being all matured and grown up all the time.. i want to be just myself, laugh my lungs out when i want to, not caring who is around with whom i am.. I do not want to like what others like and feel horrible only to look cool.. I am just like this, maybe a fool but atleast not falsely cool.. I want some one to hold my hand and walk along with me... whom i do not have to show how much i know n understand.. who can see me thru my bad hair days as well and not mind my tantrums or mood swings on some days..
Looks like i have demanded too much from life.. never ending demands u see ;)
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